Approval

 
Your words control me
I want your approval
Please do not criticise
Just to say well done
 
I need your approval
It makes me happy
But do I really?
Will it make me whole?
 
I fear your criticism
I want you to like me
To have a good opinion of me
And be please with my doings
 
But this is wrong of me
I am looking to the wrong person
For approval and love
True joy will never be gained here
 
I am being deceived
All my life this has been my aim
To get approval from others
To think that completes me
 
Worldly love is great
But it is not the end
To gain complete joy
I need to raise my eyes higher
 
I am already accepted
I was chosen before I was born
I am wanted and overall I am truly loved
I have nothing to prove
 
Jo Anne Kennedy
August 2020

Open Your Eyes

 

Everyday brings new problems

If it is not one thing, it is another

And you always find something to complain about

And it is never your fault

 

People are angry with you

And you seem to not know why

People are in tears over you

But it passes you by

 

You sit and say you have no idea

Why things are falling apart

You blame others for the demise

Of the empire you believe you built

 

The truth is things get better

In the time you were away

And it is only since your return

That the cracks are showing again

 

You bring hurt and pain

With every word you say

Every action you make

Brings a little more destruction

 

Will, you ever wake up to see?

The trail of hurt you have caused

Or are you so self centered

That you only care about you?

 

Please open your eyes

To see the pain and hurt in people’s eyes

And realise what you are doing

Before anyone else get hurts

 

 

Jo Anne Kennedy

August 2020

The More I Hear About You

 

The more I hear about you

The more I dislike you

And also dislike myself

For thinking you were decent

 

The more I hear about you

The more I regret my past

And believing in you

And the words you said

 

The more I hear about you

The more I begin to realise

That it is you who is the common denominator

In the pollution of the atmosphere

 

The more I hear about you

The more I can see

That people are hurt and scared

By the way you treated them

 

The more I hear about you

The more I wonder

Do you actually realise

The pain and the hurt you have caused

 

The more I hear about you

The more I am sympathetic

With the puppy dog who follows you

And worships your every word

 

The more I hear about you

The more I wonder

Would life be better?

If I had never met you

Need to Let Go

My heart is with you

When it’s not meant to be

My heart should be with another

He is all I need

But I want you

Even though I can’t have you

I need to focus on the one

Who truly loves me

And accepts me for who I am

You, I need to let go

But it is extremely hard

When in you are on my mind daily

You will never love me

The way I deserve

As your heart is with another

But how do I let you go

How do I just walk away?

And leave you behind

How do I walk towards the one?

Who I don’t deserve

But who truly loves me

He is the one who deserves my focus

He is the one I truly need

It’s his love that will see me through

He loves me no matter what

He forgives all my sins

And has eyes only for me

What a man is he?

Who just loves me for me?

One who is undeserving of love

April 2020

Jo Anne Kennedy

Overcompensate

I try my best

Actually, I try to be better

I overcompensate

I need to prove myself

Prove that I am the same

That I am equal

That I pull my weight

So they can’t complain

I end up suffering

And unable to do things

So I feel useless

I feel like a failure

But why do I do this?

I have no need too

It is because I am afraid

Afraid of the judgment

But those who matter

They do not care

Their main concern

Is that I take care of myself

So now with time on my hands

I sit back and think

Who or what is important

Whose opinion matters?

What matters is me

That I am well enough

I need to say no to them

And look after myself

My health is important

It makes me able to be and do

To be there for others

And help those in time of need

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2020

Thank You

To the one who safely delivered me

Into this crazy world

I want to say Thank You

To the ones who stitched me up

When I split my head open twice

I want to say Thank You

To the one who listened to me

When I was at my lowest

I want to say Thank You

To the one who held my hand

When I was scared on my own

I want to say Thank You

To the one who put me to sleep

So surgery could be performed

I want to say Thank You

To the one who saw my pain

And helped me walk through it

I want to say Thank You

To the one who stuck with me

And forced me to do my exercises

I want to say Thank You

To the one who showed me compassion

When breaking bad news

I want to say Thank You

To the ones who took care of me

When I couldn’t catch a breath

I want to say Thank You

Thank you to all those

Who have been there for me

To many times for me to count

I appreciate all the care and support

I have had throughout the years

I want to say Thank You

Thank you to the NHS

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2020

Wonder Why?

Every day I go to work

And I wonder why

Why am I here

Are we admin even valued?

Does our work matter?

Printing papers, checking emails

How does that help anyone?

Have we a purpose?

It feels like it is nonsense

That we are there fill seats

Or getting in the way

Of the managers who matter

But when it comes down to it

We all need to realise

That no matter what our job is

We all have a part to play

It may feel like it’s not important

The work that you do

You may feel unappreciated

And fed up of staring at a screen

But it important to realise

That there is always someone out there

Who appreciates what you do

Probably more than you will ever know

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2020