Taboo

I know that I am not supposed to feel like this

I shouldn’t feel closed off

Or as if I am in darkness

Or sinking into an abyss

I shouldn’t feel like this

As it is considered a failure

To show your symptoms

And be vulnerable

Depression is a taboo subject

In the Christian community

Why are you depressed

Is Jesus not good enough for you

Christian’s shouldn’t be depressed

With Jesus in their lives

His love for us

Should make us filled with joy

So why the sad face

Why the lack of despair

Why are you hiding away?

Can you not cheer up?

I despair of this

Because if you read the Bible

Just turn to the Psalms

And listen to David

He struggled with life

He retreated to the cave

He called out in angst

He felt left behind

So if it is ok for David

It is ok for me

Because God treasured him

And God cherishes me

Jo Anne Kennedy

March 2019