Too Many Thoughts

Too many thoughts

In my head

Some good, some bad

But all causing confusion

Voices telling me things

Which I don’t want to hear

‘They don’t like you’

‘He is fed up with you’

Lies but still I believe

Because I am insecure

And want to feel the warmth

Of being liked and loved

I need to say no the lies

And think on real terms

As well as focusing on the truth

That I am loved by people

However, the lies still take hold

As when you speak to me

Or don’t speak to me

My brain runs riot

What did he mean by that?

Why did he ignore me?

What did that face mean?

What have I done?

All these crushing thoughts

Hitting my head

Gnawing at my nervous system

And driving me mad

I need to breathe

And to remember

To take everything at face value

And believe I am loved

Jo Anne Kennedy

January 2020