Expectations

Do I expect too much?

Do I care too much?

Do I think too much?

Is it hard to pick up the phone?

To send a text or make a call

And say how are you today?

You know my number

You know me as well

Yet you still don’t care

Am I really that person?

That when I am out of sight

I am out of minds as well

Does it really matter?

In this grand scheme of life

I am just one tiny particle

There is more to life than me

There is you and there is them

And we all make the world turn

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2018

Complicated Minds

Minds are complicated

Hearts are too

Filled with thoughts

Filled with feelings

Thoughts which are random

Thoughts that are true

And I tend to overthink

Which makes my brain ache

Feelings of hurt and love

Of weird and wonderful things

But the heart is precious

And can easily break in two

My mouth says one thing

And my mind another

Then the heart gets involved

And everything is a jumble

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2018

Pushing Away

What is wrong with me?

Every time someone gets close

I push them away

I think I must be scared

Of them walking away

So instead I give them a push

I don’t want to do that

And I don’t even realise

That I am doing it

I am just like everyone else

In that, I want to be loved

And to be a friend

But it just seems to happen

That one day they disappear

And it’s not their fault

It’s me that is the problem

I make them go

And that makes me sad

Jo Anne Kennedy

May 2018

Beautiful

I look into the mirror

And say I am ugly

Then I hear your voice

Saying you are beautiful to me

I may think I am nothing

But you made me something

You gave me my days

To be who you made me

A person with creativity

Someone to shine for you

Though I don’t feel I can

So you give me the strength

You are there when I wander

In the dark and lonely woods

Taking my hand

Leading me back

Back to an understanding

That I am not ugly

But made in your image

I am beautiful

Jo Anne Kennedy

May 2018

Space

Too much space

Scares me

As it gives me time

To think

Thinking too much

Isn’t good for me

As it takes me

To places, I should not go

Empty places

Full of dark and gloom

Which makes me sad

And question who I am

Jo Anne Kennedy

May 2018

Co-dependency

You are a rescuer

You sweep down on people

In their hour of need

You surround them daily

Offering your services

And giving them advice

You think it is healthy

And that you are important

And being helpful

But it actually causes problems

Because your co-dependency

Makes others dependant on you

It brings hurt to them

And also to others

As it shows favouritism

And that is not healthy

It is actually distracting

To those around you

It causes people to talk

And gossip behind your back

As you love some and ignore others

The behaviour is unhealthy

For you and for them

As it causes divides in the ranks

Take a step back

And look at the chaos

And the lives you have turned upside down

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2018

Open or Closed?

You open yourself up

Leave yourself vulnerable

When you are honest

And wear your heart on your sleeve

But that’s the type of person

That people feel they can trust

Because when you are open

It makes them feel safe

It’s the people who are closed

That are the ones to avoid

Because they put up a wall

And won’t let you inside

They say they are safe

But their words are cold

And their eyes distant

Which should be a warning

They never talk about themselves

But always speak of others

Of their rights and wrongs

And how they could change

That’s not a positive thing

So it’s important to choose

Who will be in your life

And who will be on the outside

It’s also important to choose

Which one you will be

The gossiping critical person

Or the person full of love

Jo Anne Kennedy

April 2018