Waking up to reality

I was listening to you tonight

And the realisation hit me

That for the past two years

I have been untrue to you

In my naivety and in my weakness

I have been focusing on another

Listening to his every word

And showering him in adoration

I thought all this was harmless

Though my thoughts are possessed

With the words and actions

Of a man who exudes charisma

I never thought I’d lose control

Of the thoughts in my mind

I never thought this obsession

Would escalate as much as it has

When I was listening to you

I heard you say ‘What about me’?

And it woke me up to the reality

The reality of what is True

I just want to say I’m sorry

I’m sorry for excluding you

And leaving you out in the cold

I promise to turn my attention to you

I never thought something so harmless

Could go out of control so easily

I never meant to hurt you

All I can really say is I am sorry

Joanne Kennedy ©

November 2004